Why is when I decide to never turn back from the sex, lies, alcohol, and clubs that it haunts me trying to get me right back?
I know I don't want to be that person I use to be anymore but temptation is pressuring me to get back right back.
Sex.... I don't want to give my body to a person and sin against myself let alone GOD. I'm tired of being hurt.
Lies....I'm afraid to like anyone because I don't want to be hurt anymore.
Alcohol....Drinking my sorrows away only to wake up with the same problems. Shot after shot hoping that it would just erase any plot that I know reality is faced tomorrow. As I slumber into a drunken face sleep, I wake up hours later only to cry because the problems are still arise.
As I hold on to my pillow tight and tear glaze down my face. I close my eyes and pray.
Oh God I just want to crumble in your arms take this pain away. Let me walk with you until my dying days. Ill leave my fears by the side of the road knowing theres nothing to fear being alongside of you. Set your grace and mercy upon me let you be the only trusted key to my heart. I know you'll never leave me nor forsake me, I know you'll be here because you are alpha and omega you are beginning to end. When I cry, I cry with tears of joy of your love you have me and this world. Following you will get me through any struggle, addiction, self sufficient loss, with you I can get through it all.
Let me be what you want me to be and not what this world seeks me to be. Let those things of the world leave me be cause you are all I need in thee
